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New year//new life

2012-02-12T00:25:00.002+08:00

Wow....it's a brand new year again.
2012 is quite an important year to me because there are a lot of things that have happened
which has drained me emotionally and physically.
School life is quite stressing, to be honest.
wait, it's SUPER stressing.
Dont really want to elaborate much....just that I have to really give it all.

But I just cant believe that you did that!
I did try my best...oh well, maybe Im too insignificant.
Will try to accept that. Thanks ah.

Anyway, Valentine's Day is coming soon!
seriously -.-
that will only make me think of that day.
It was my fault, all right.
But i cant really do anything more.
Cause I have tried whatever I can.
So yeah.

Really...as the years pass by, my life is getting more and more complicated.
I seriously wish to go back to the past...when my life as much more relaxing and less complicated.

Reflejo Part II

2011-12-12T10:24:00.003+08:00

Like I have said in my previous post, I have lots to share today.

This 2nd post will focus more on studies.
Being a year 1 student is tough.
TOUGH.STRESSING.TIRING.
But amazingly, I survived the first year.
And Im going to be a senior next year -.-
Which means that next year will be a super important year.
yes, SUPER DUPER IMPORTANT.

I have many friends/seniors to thank for guiding, advicing and encouraging me along...
And I really hope that you guys can continue on next year.
But, I might be alone next year...
as some of my seniors are going off for ns. -.-

Anyway, this is my life.
I have to fight for it.
And give it my best.
My seniors/friends cant be there for me most of the time.
So yes, I have to give it all and work even harder.
But not too hard. -.-

O's was super good experience.
Even though I didnt do well in it, but it made me understand lots of things and life values.
So yes, i must really thank O's.

This is it.
It's down to the final year.
Time flies and do not wait for everybody.
It's up to yourself.
FIGHT ON! (:

Relfections/Reflejo

2011-12-12T09:58:00.005+08:00

It's December 12 today. And I have lots to share!

3 years back, in December 12 2008, something awesome have happened to me.

It was short lived but yet I took years just to forget about this whole incident and move on in life.

I thought that thing would be everlasting.

But, unfortunately, it was not the ideal case I wanted it to be.

Maybe I was the only party who wanted to go back to the past and amend things....

but the other rejected.

So yup? What can I say?

I have learnt a lot from that short two months.

The happiness that I have experienced was inexpressible.

It was awesome! (:

LOL. -.-

But the pain was ......hellish? (ok, maybe I'm exaggerating)

It was like, some part of you have gone missing.

It sucks to know that we can never be together again...

because I do believe that we can be back together again.

but whatever it is, I have moved on.

And im letting go of everything. (:

And im wishing you all the best in finding your gf!

So sorry that I wasnt a good one though.

All the best.

Frustrations

2011-12-05T22:47:00.002+08:00

Seriously...Some things have happened recently...
And yeah....I have sort of been in bad mood for these past few days.

I dont like the way some people say things.
I'd admit, it's my fault for blowing the whole matter up and affecting many people, but yeah.....
So now yeah......
SORRY ):

But it's no use, isisn't it?
Maybe I should be quiet from now on.
Just mug hard and work hard.
And fight on.

Yeah.
I have no one to confide my feelings to...
and it may remain like this forever.

My mood was pretty much happy today...
but it was ruined by the aftermath of the incident.

So yeah...maybe I should seriously become a quiet person, no longer the chatty and talkative person anymore.

Seventeen / 17

2011-11-23T00:20:00.003+08:00

Hello all, it's been god knows how many months since I have last blogged.
Life's been quite ok for me, except for some ups and downa (more of the latter)...

Yeah...And im finally 17.
And this signifies the end of my j1 year...
In short, my j1 is more of a hands-on year. I get to experience different kinds of things that you will never expect to experience in such a short year. But overall, it made me reflect on my life as a whole and the step that im going to take next.

So yeah, I will try my best to make use of this precious day to reflect fully on my life and how I am going to continue next.

Haha. Alright...I've got to go now.
There are lectures tomorrow. Meh.

Aftermath of Mid Years

2011-07-03T12:49:00.002+08:00

alright, so im back blogging.
It's the end of mid years.
And I screwed up all the papers...
erm wow.

hahaha.
This may be my worst result in my 16 years of living.
sighs.

Have loads to work on.
Let's perserve on!
FIGHTING! (:

fight on

2011-06-23T11:08:00.002+08:00

ARGH.
THIS IS IT.
I dont care whether I have been doing badly in mj or will get jialat results for my upcoming mid years or not.
But I just know this: Im going to work hard and push on, fight on.
because that's the only thing that im left with.

enough of heartbreaks or whatsoever.
My heart has already been shattered into pieces.
And only one thing is able to mend it back.
STUDIES.

thanks for making me a fighter. (:

Cryin'

2011-06-04T16:22:00.002+08:00

Wow...So it has been 3 months since I have last posted.
Fulfilled my promise to one of my seniors! (:
That's the first promise that came true!

Alright...Yeah honestly speaking, Im not very happy in mj.
Am not going to elaborate on it.
But I have fun watching the soccer semis and finals!
Screamed and cheered out my whole heart for mj :D
hahahaha...
And then...congrats to the CALLISTO cheerleaders who are the champions for this year's colosseum cheerleading.
By the way, I just want to say thanks to the 8th house committee (:

Alright, holidays are here...but it doesnt feel like a holiday itself.
Loads of revision/studying/tutorials to be done.

Sighs. JIAYOUS AND WORK HARDER!

Term 1 reflections

2011-03-17T17:08:00.003+08:00

Alright.
Im back here again to blog and rant out my thoughts/feelings for the past few days.

It's true.
I sort of regretted joining mjc.
I sort of regretted joining ping pong.
I sort of regretted take biology and econs.

The only thing that i have not regretted is being able to be a part of the callisto family. -.-
Yeah, i mean that I have considered over and over again on my first school choice.
Meridian or Ngee Ann?
Meridian or Ngee Ann?
Meridian or Ngee Ann?
But i have no idea why that i put mj as my first choice and i got in.
Then...comes the subject combination...
Physics or Biology?
This was a topic that I have been debating inside my head for the past few months, right after my O levels, to be exact.
And i chose biology.
And my ping pong competition is on next week.
NEXT WEEK -.-

Seriously, it's like im living in hell now.
CCA, Studies...
It's the same old routine. (not that i'm complaining lah)
Really have no time to socialise/meet up with friends.
Projects are also....

Sighs.
I have already forgotten about you.
Im trying to avoid seeing your name on twitter and fb.
But i can never ever forget the word,
that word that totally broke my heart,
that word that made me lose hope,
that word that made me feel like im some idiot waiting for a thing that will never happen again.

Most likely the first and the last person that i will fall in love with, for now.

Extra ping pong training tmw.
Going to see my juniors again (:

And i should really motivate myself.
Have some confidence and soar high like an eagle, flying to greater heights.
Term 2 is going to be damn packed.
PW kicks in.
Competition kicks in too.
Mid years coming.
GAH.
Even though I have lesser subjects, but it's like 15x the stress now.
Still also start changing.

Go cyn go!

busy.hectic

2011-03-12T17:14:00.002+08:00

One month has passed since I became a Meridian.
Life is so stressful there... and it's really different from Secondary School life.
Tutorials, lectures, projects are never ending.

sighs. I have nothing to say.
):

MJ life

2011-02-17T22:44:00.002+08:00

Heys, it's been like %^#$%#%$days/months since I have last posted.
And yes, like what the title have suggested
I am officially a MERIDIAN.
Im not sure whether this is the correct choice, but time will tell.

Anyway, had a great talk with two seniors (:
Thank you so much!
Got some advices from one.
Super duper good.
And i regretted not listening to one of my seniors' advice during my upper sec years.

Don't ever look back and sorry love, sorry that i wasted your time.